RANTS OF AN OVERSTRESSED WIFE-N-MOM

Well I dunno really where to start or what to write....I guess that's why I titled this like I did. They're mostly just rants and complaints that float in the air around me cause I have no one to hand them over to....not even God cause I don't wanna bother him with petty crap. So they just linger around me, sometimes penetrating my mind again and taking over my thoughts, my hours, my life. Really can't say I mind too much sometimes cause sometimes it's just comfortable to be mad...sometimes it just being mad makes me happy. I know it sounds weird but think about it, I bet almost everybody has been at that place once or twice. It's just easier to stay mad sometimes than to work out the problem at hand, or you've mad about the same thing so many times and so frequently that it just doesn't get better so why bother trying to feel better? These rants linger for years you know? Some just cling to you since childhood. They invade your thoughts when you least expect it. Anything can trigger a memory and that memory triggers the awakening of anger deep inside you, anger you thought was in deep sleep. Although you do know it's there, you know you couldn't get rid of it no matter what you did. Wow this is getting depressing and I'm generalizing too much...I better start getting specific. I had one of those bad childhoods you just try not to remember much about, I had a mother that I just dunno how to describe, but yet I love and want to keep loving. I have now been married almost 18 yrs to the same man!! I have 4 great daughters that drive me crazy right along with their daddy....and now I have a new house that I thought was gonna be somehow the culmination of my happiness yet it's turning into another cause for grief along with the cat, hamster and 2 dogs in it. I will be more specific next time cause i just ran out of time....one of my mayor ranting opportunity just walked in....my mother!